The venomous thoughts are creeping into my already fragile and destroyed mind. Their mission is to wrap themselves around remaining healthy cells and strangle them to death. I keep pushing them away as far as I can do but they keep coming back in the new form. They disguise themselves in various sophisticated ways. It’s easy to say – ‘Learn to live with it ‘ but to experience it on daily basis is bloody paralysing. It leaves you traumatised for good few minutes and you begin to question yourself about your sanity. But on the other hand there is beauty in it, without anxiety I wouldn’t be able to experience all sort of twisted emotions so I accept my partner for life and exist with it in peace.