Hypocrite due to difficulties….
I often talk about the benefits and healing properties of active meditation. I’m known of giving tips and advice how to succesful free your mind from tge realms of ovewhelming stress.
I’d always thought that I had it perfectly mastered. Oh, how I was wrong. Today, I needed to go outside to relax and collect my thoughts due to being under stress. I decided that it was a perfect opportunity to activately meditate. I tried it and I failed. My mind was so occupied with anxiety and negative predictions that it felt like it was being devoured by an alligator.
I had stopped it and insted focused on a picture on the fence. I stared at it and breathed for good 2-3 minutes letting my thoughts flow with its own pace. Afterwards, I didn’t feel completely resurrected but partially alive which was enough for me to funcion.
Woke up with porridgy and blurry mind?
Woke up with a porridgy and blurry mind? Do you feel like you can’t face the day?
It’s just your tired mind sending you signals that you must do something to unload the cargo consisting of worries and problems. You need to make some space for new arrivals.
Have you tried active meditation?
It’s simple, if you are in bed, focus on the surroundings, the softeness of the bedding and the way you are positioned in bed. Next, get up, walk towards the window and look through it. What can you see? Open it, don’t forget about breathing.
Look. Focus on every single details. What colour are the walls of the house next to yours? Are there any birds sitting on the roof? Crows, pigeons or Sparrows?
Do you feel any better?
You can do it.
How to live with a mental cloud above your head ?
When the mental cloud of being idle comes and grabs your soul making you feel worthless, miserable and unprepared for a day ahead don’t think about yourself in a negagive way. Instead pull through the day by following a list. A to do list is a simple but efficient way of putting your day in order. It doesn’t need to be written down it can stay in your head ( if it doesn’t cause you mentally too much pressure). After ticking one task off the list you will feel a sense of relief and on the top of that you will experience a wave of relaxing sensation. The relaxing sensation derives from the fact that you have made yourself occupied with something else apart from your problems. Putting it in a simpler way you’ve given your mind a well deserved break and you are experiencing benefits of it.
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The truth about pregnancy.
Before getting pregnant I thought I knew everything about the whole pregnancy thing. I thought I was prepared and had it all figured all. Surprise, surprise I’ve been unprepared not only for a load of physical symptoms but also for mental health overload.
It feels like I’ve been on a rollercoaster which never slows down, never stops but constantly accelerates. I barely have control over it but I still need to hold it together. Which I do but it’s heck of a challenge.
What do I do to help myself?
First of all, I’ve been talking about my feelings and emotions out loud. I find it very therapeutic to be able to share them with my partner Ian.
Secondly, I’ve been taking it easy when I need by using coping techniques from active meditation. The active meditation is all about being aware of the present moment and focusing on breathing.
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How much is too much when it comes to work, sanity and wellbeing?
How much is too much? It’s a very general question. It can be related to anything. Today, this question is related to a job. I’m going to extend this question to:
How much mistreatment at work is too much to put a full stop to it?
I consider myself to be a very experienced, fairly simple and very straighforward human being who expects the same from others. I often forget that it’s fairly impossible to receive ‘ a full package’ from people around me as the world is full of mischievious idiots who just wait to devour eachother by gradual but effective backstabbing.
Where am I going with it?
I feel like people like me who perceive the world in a simple and realistic way struggle a lot. I’m sensitive and not interested in politically strategic games. Someone would say- ” Why don’t you change yourself?” Well, I’ve tried it…
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Shocking but truthful…
Is it shocking that at times I need some space ?
Is it shocking that after a day of dealing with people I need some time to recover?
Is it shocking that I’m an extremely straighforward and introverted person who values communication more than anything?
Is it shocking that I keep distance from people whom I don’t trust?
Is it shocking that I reject to conform to society standards of everyday living and interaction?
I am who I am and I appreaciate being the solely and only real version of myself.
Are you real?
Have you beaten yourself up of not fitting socially to a group of peers?
Have you tried to change yourself to the point of loosing your identity?
Have you changed yourself for someone in order to please them?
My pledge to you today is to not change anything about yourself for one day. Take a piece…
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Pregnancy & mental health
I’m pregnant and I suffer from anxiety. I drink cranberry juice instead of gin. I do miss the mighty gin.
Two days ago I felt like my world came crushing down because I have experienced the worst anxiety and panic attack in years. It resulted for me in sobbing and weeping uncontrollably for two days. I convinced myself that my fiance would die in the car accident, that my mother would die due to the heart attack caused by long term family problems, that my father would go back to abusing alcohol and that my brother would commit suicide while being incarcerated. My head felt fuzzy, I was in a daze, it felt like something clicked in my brain and pushed me towards realms of depression. In the past, I allowed myself to slip in to deceiving arms of depression from anxiety and panic attacks periods. I know how this…
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Thrive like this nettle despite the bulshit happening around you.
My heart is fully devoted to all four seasons equally welcoming them with open arms !!! Crispy, fresh, humid feel in the air of Autumn makes me feel alive.
Can you spot a frog?