Body Positivity

Body positivity

Mental Health See-Saw

I’m sure you’ve heard about a group of wonderful people who embrace body positivity. These lovely people who are of different body shapes and sizes are trying to change the distorted perception of beauty deeply embedded in the modern society. I’m convinced that at some in your life you wondered if you are adequate, good or beautiful enough. Maybe you’ve spent years on changing your diet and adjusting excercises to achieve the ultimate and perfect look which can be seen in miscellaneous magazines.

I adore working out myself but I have stopped killing my dear body and mental side for the sake of transformation. I was tired of seeing ‘transformation pictures’ of people who lost/ gained / maintained weight claiming that their lives have become a miracle wonderland. Have they really? How can I know that your life has changed for the better after you dropped few pounds? I can’t…

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Body Image

Body Image and its impact on your life.

Mental Health See-Saw

What we see in the mirror, what we feel like and how others visually perceive us differ.

Is everyone beautiful despite their looks? What about the beauty standards?

Everyone is unique, in my opinion, there is no ugly or less attractive in general. Obviously, everyone has their own preference in regards to the physical appearance. The concept of physical appearance has been distorted by media which imposed on you ‘an acceptable’ female and male body image. Social platforms are booming with pictures, mantras and affirmations which suppose to transform your life and help you to achieve the ultimate goal which is a perfect body. That perfect body is suppose to change your life, make you happy and fulfilled. This is pure delusion to me. You know why? Because first of all you are BEAUTIFUL and UNIQUE the way you are. There is noone else like you in this world. It…

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An Email to My Younger Self

Remember you are like this flower- you are unique , weird and perfect in your own and wonderful way !!!!

What would you say to your younger self?

Mental Health See-Saw

Dear Anna,

I would like to give you a big emotional hug and tell you of how wonderful, unique, loveable, funny and clever you are.

Next, I would encourage you to embrace your figure and body every single day. I would stop you from from obsessing about the food, binging to the point of being sick, starving and exercising to maintain the same weight.

I would try my best to befriend you and motivate you to make you proud of yourself. I would stop you from analysing all the conversations you had with people in your life. You frequently managed to give to yourself pressure headache. Can you remember it? Pressure headache was the result of your brain begging you to SLOW DOWN.

I would encourage you to listen to your beloved music, draw, sing very loud, paint, write and read whatever you like without constantly criticising yourself. I would…

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Eating Disorder

The story about my struggle with the eating disorder.

Mental Health See-Saw

I had suffered from an eating disorder for many years. I used to emotionally overeat (binge), starve myself and exercise in order to burn the calories I had consumed. It was impossible for me to eat in public places as I felt constantly observed and looked at by strangers. I hated my body and I felt ashamed of it. I avoided mirrors at any cost because in my opinion I didn’t meet the beauty standards. I mentally abused myself by calling my body & inner-self names-” Ugly pig”, “Disgusting fat monster”, “Fat retard”, “Fat looser”etc. I didn’t feel worth of being loved and cared for. I had isolated myself from the world and let the abuse from myself & my ex to take over my life.

It took me a long time to overcome horrible thoughts and overwhelming emotional state which encouraged frequent and regular binge eating sessions. I used…

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Crash

What happens when a highly sensitive person flies high from the excitement to tragically crash and meet the sorrow combined with the reality?

Feelings of hurt, sadness , failure , disappointment and anger start to pour down into a pot of one’s existence.

Nobody wants to be a part of this situation, nobody wants to feel hurt and sad. How to avoid it? 

My advice is to remain ‘SOBER’ – a very strange thing to say but it’s quite possible to get ‘drunk’ with emotions and feelings. 

Think about it….

When you are overly negative, sad and angry then you can easily slip into the world of sadness and anxiety which may lead to depression. The same cycle stands for being constantly ecstatic and overexcited. You get this instant initial rush which makes you feel wonderful before falling off the cliff into the sea of the dull reality. 

If you are just able to find the golden middle and balance your emotions then you will save yourself a lot of heartache & energy.  Welcome to your life healthy enjoyment & sensible way of coping with not so glamorous happenings. Active meditation and acknowledgement of the present moment is crucial in this process. By exercising your mind in to noticing details of ‘ here & now’ you will prevent your brain from overheating which will allow you to stay on the right track instead of tripping over the excess of the modern world.

Eating & Drinking

I allow every bite or sip to become a process of enjoyment. I celebrate the smell which contributes to a wonderful taste. I’m gratful that I’m able to participate in this ritual rejecting overindulging. 

The Three Preying Monsters

Sadness, anxiety and binge eating, what a great trio, they exist together plotting each others crimes and planning to smother my mind in multiple ways. They are like two sisters and one brother, without a mother and a father who are long time gone in a mystery blow. They cherish and nurture their diabolical and dysfunctional family by injecting sewage of demoralised thoughts into my veins feeding their parasitic bodies. I’m still alive but the trio posses the licence to kill, they strangle their victims with a twisted distinction developed over the years and practised on innocent prey. The are deeply ingrained in victims’ minds, each attempt of their extermination ends with spurting blood from the casualties brains. Remember if you want to win this battle embrace your inner- self, accept who you are and apprehend your strengths and weaknesses. Don’t cling onto your hope, self- imposed denial or perfectionism!!!! 

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