Feelings are one of the most important things in life. They help us to make the judgment by being the communicator between the conscience, empathy and logical thinking.
Greeting negative , neutral and positive feelings with open arms allows us to analyse various life situations more objectively making us successful. Many of us try to mute or disregard feelings by following the rational thinking pattern in order to protect ourselves. I could compare it to eating the same type of food for lunch everyday and rejecting any other meal because even though it’s not satisfying enough it’s still filling – I can easily name it ‘a safe option’.
What if we venture out and actually try something unexpectedly different. Would it make us happier or more miserable? We won’t know unless we try! I do believe the key to happiness is a healthy balance made of miscellaneous ingredients which stimulate our existence. Think about it 😊
It’s Tuesday morning and I’m awaiting for the interview. For a highly sensitive person like me it’s a huge challenge because my brain rushes and processes milion thoughts and possibilities at the same time. It leaves me with a head which feels like a ticking bomb from the Bomberman. The factors that contribute to this state of mind are not only internal but also external. Fair enough for my brain to rush with thoughts like a speedy oyster running away from the coyote but on the top of that lovely chocolate layer of thoughts I have the whole external world and happenings bursting with joy and happily contributing to my well being making it feel like a rollercoaster.
How do I cope ?
I sit down, look and listen. I acknowledge the fact that I’m in the present moment. I can feel my feet touching the ground. I enjoy breathing in and out. I use my eyes to observe people and surroundings. I listen to their feet moving in a fast and steady pace, I can hear a piano playing tunes in the background. I’m one unique individual who cherishes the fact of being alive.
Peace & Love can conquer the bad and bring back the good. Fate & Universe is all we need. Active meditation is a powerful tool to heal and help to move forward even if you feel like the Bomberman 😊
As I walk I breath…. but how do I breath? Am I occupied with bombarding and tormenting thoughts? Is my mind tortured and afraid of the future? Do I keep asking myself
– what if………?
Present moment is the only way of spiritual & personal freedom. What counts appears here and now. I’ve found myself so many times being calmed down and soothed by the healing power of nature. It doesn’t cost anything. It requires an effort of coming out of the crowded space in to the green/ brown/ grey sanctuary depends on the season. The healing beauty is around us it just needs to be noticed and acknowledged.
Wisdom doesn’t come with age but with experiences. An old person can be foolish, dopey & bitter like a rusty metal bucket with a missing bottom and a fairly young human being with a humongous luggage of life experiences might appear as a creature who doesn’t go in to the idle state of existential hibernation but instead uses it as a guidance for a fulfilling journey in the present moment.
As I was walking on the street covered in debris I stumbled upon a building which emanated terrifying and seductive energy. I was immediately drawn to it. Excited and hopeful I entered the house made of gold and silver tiles. The house didn’t have rooms but was a triangular open area. In the middle of it was sitting a transparent creature who introduced himself as ‘ Freddie’. Freddie didn’t look happy or sad but agitated. He was holding a crimson sack which was made of suede fabric. I must admit , I liked the colour and I was tempted to touch it but my Inner- self stopped me. I attempted to start a conversation with Freddie by saying old and well known – ‘ How are you Freddie?’. Freddie didn’t respond but opened the sack instead. Despite the fact that I stood few metres away from Freddie I still could see what was inside the bag. I saw money, gold , silver , jewellery and an envelope signed as – ‘ Neverending happiness , good luck and wealthy life’. I stepped back and ran away.
I don’t believe in wealthy life without worries, problems and troubles. I believe that the negativity in our lives helps balance the positivity. It creates a healthy and steady bridge between our mental and physical health. Building that bridge is the most difficult part as it requires gratitude and humbleness. The inner- self helps us to find the gaps in our lives that need to be filled with learnt lessons and positive energy. Once the voids are sealed mental wounds can begin to heal. There will be scars which will accompany us till the rest of our lives. I treat my painful mental marks with love & understanding as they remind me of my courage and braverery.
Mental scars and wounds have made me of who I am today – a strong , flawed and a resilient woman who lives her simple life by following her conscience and heart and by listening to her twin – the Inner- self. I view my inner- self as my twin sister- a fearless and reckless version of me who rejects threats of the outside world. My ‘twin’ constantly strives for more and is not afraid. My life has improved since I have learnt to look deep inside myself and became aware of the present moment. I have rejected materialistic believes and pleasures. I have learnt to love myself. I have stopped looking for acceptance and approval from others. I have stopped hoping for better times to come. I have started embracing life and all its aspects. Here and now is crucial. When worries and problems come I slow down and take a break but I don’t put myself down anymore. I release negativity through tears, get up and go. Most of all, I allow my loved ones to be there for me. Shit comes, happens, goes and leaves us with new life lessons which enrich our lives. Although it’s been 5 years since I transformed my life I still learn and I won’t stop!
Thich Nhat Hanh has taught me a lot with his full of wisdom writings.
I imagine life to be a deep hole without a bottom at the end. When you are born , you are being pushed into it and start falling down at a high velocity.There are feathers and flowers growing out of the walls. When you touch them they caress your soul so you feel lucky, loved and fortunate. But there are also pointy rods and swords. When they pierce your soul you pray and wait to hit the rock bottom. You never do.Time heals your wounds and the cycle begins again. You only hit the rock bottom when your time comes.
Humid air makes me breath in all the possible germs which can be found in this corrupted land. I enhale and exhale polluted air filling my lungs with dust. I imagine my two organs to be creased and covered in a thick trickly layer of little particles mixed with my inner fluids. Despite the fact of having dirty lungs I still venture outside admiring the world. It reminds me of life – it’s luck and misfortune. We have been beaten up to a pulp so many time yet we still get up and go.
Angels, fallen and blessed are of the same kind, they choose their path slowly sketching so called fate which is just a result of life choices and coincidences. We are the creators of our inner selves sculpting the future therefore let’s not blame the God for misfortune but work towards self improvement.