Demanding Innocence?

Life is real

An emotionally moving journey called
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Mental Health SeeSaw

Violence and intrusion

A Moment of Confusion

This is the moment i feared

My Cry, you cannot hear

 

A hold you had on me

A firm and fearful grasp

You coward behind me

Beneath your dark, black mask

 

The others you saw

They wanted to run

My heart pumping away

I felt weak, like a dying sun

 

We still could not move it

We had to go back again

Your black shroud, controlling

Hurting, fellow men

 

Possessed by urge

You reached your point

Again you wanted me

Again you urged me

Again you killed me

 

The door was open

You grabbed the prize

I lie there, such horror have I seen

I wait there, for my cries to be heard

I stay there for days, haunted by you

 

I want to leave…..

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When you move house everything feels up-side-down. There a boxes everywhere together with a newly adopted cat… Farah Von Mittens. It’s beautifully challenging but we’ve done great as a team with a newly added male feline. Our love is based on respect and mutual understanding which makes us both happy. Tomorrow is going to be another day of unpacking & decorating.

Bonnie’s Golden Thoughts

The world

Bonnie says- ‘Be proud of who you are – you great & complicated human creature. Don’t ever let anyone to patronize you or disrespect you. If someone does it to you try your best to remove yourself from the toxic interaction. Don’t suffer in silence. Don’t let your thoughts to devour your healthy mind. Share your feelings and never dwell on your problems alone!!!’

Ms Beetle & Mr Mittens are Goldilocks Exterminators

Surreal thoughts

 

This is what word looks like from Ms Bettle and Mr Mittens’ point of view. Ms Bettle is of a female hormonal kind. She lives in the cosy spot with Mr Mittens somewhere in the middle of the meadow in the big city surrounded by parks. They both enjoy soft tunes of the wind, breezy mornings and neighbours of different species- one of them is called Tony, a giant goose who drops everything he tries to carry with the loud- BANG & BOOM. They both admire nature and speak softly about the existence. They both suffer from  flactulence from over frequent consumption of dairy. She is a little philosopher who doesn’t give a fuck about the materialistic world but appreciates simplicity and surrealism which is present in everyday life.  He is unique himself with wild & sarcastic sense of humour. He is intelligent and bases his contemplations and thoughts on scientific and everyday life knowledge. Ms Bettle & Mr Mittens complete eachother and complement eachother’s quirks and super-special powers.

Love

Peace

Respect

Uniqueness

The House Of Love

Life is real

A smile put on a face by someone who resides in your heart is a wonderful gift and blessing. 

Common Goals & Affection prepare the ground to build a concrete base for the relationship. 

Mutual acceptance & respect build a strong foundation.

Love & Friendship crafts intricate walls of the union of two people.

Care & Interests make a leakage proof roof.

Understanding & Tolerance install insulation.

All of the above build a steel door of the union, love & relationship of two people who have equally been working hard on their beautiful  creation.

I love you  xxx 

A Deluded Creature

Life is real

How far can a deluded creature wander? Why does a deluded creature refuse to take responsibility for its own actions? It’s so easy to walk in circles justifying misery and own misfortune. A deluded creature finds preying on the lives of others very consoling and soothing. I can compare it  to feeding an unfulfilled beast inside their bodies. I’m saddened by the fact that a deluded creature refuses to take life in its hands and move on. It keeps spying on others,  blames those around them, rejects beauty of life and a miracle of their own family. A deluded creature keeps poisoning not only its own life but lives of people affected by its distorted thinking path. 

Being an adult means making decisions, being responsible and appreciating time left on this Earth attracting and embracing positive energy. It also means filtering people who enter and exit your life. Adults are capable of taking care of themselves. The skid mark of pain that resides in solitude can mentally affect anyone on this planet but it doesn’t take away your brain. If you crave for company occupy yourself, meet with friends & go out  (even for a walk). If you crave for love but don’t have anyone in your life call your Mum, Dad, Nan, a cousin, a niece or any existing relative and tell them how much you love them. If you have a child focus on your child. Your child is the most amazing human being who is your closest living relative and who loves you unconditionally. Respect your friends,  never let friendship to cross boundaries to become ‘friends with benefits’ crap, do you know why? Because you will most likely become intangled in it & hurt. There won’t be any guilty sides as you have never been forced into anything or foolishly promised sky coated clouds in marshmallows. 

I have been through a lot in my life. I have been taught a lot. I don’t consider myself broken or vulnerable ( as one deluded creature has insinuated). I bear the scars of my life experiences with pride and joy because they have made me of who I’m today- a strong and independent woman who embraces her life. My anxiety has always been my partner for life- my dear puppet- yet we’ve made it work in a way that has helped me and other fighters who refuse to give up same as me. At this point in my life I’m ready for a grown up relationship that will lead to start my own family of bears. I have been lucky enough to find and be blessed with a life partner and a soulmate who is ready for and wants the same thing. We both learn from our strong points & imperfections. 

A state of being a deluded creature who is slowly changing in to a rotting leech is changeable and it’s only up to that poor deluded creature to start taking care of its own life leaving its past behind focusing on the present moment.