Bonnie’s Golden Thoughts

The world

Bonnie says- ‘Be proud of who you are – you great & complicated human creature. Don’t ever let anyone to patronize you or disrespect you. If someone does it to you try your best to remove yourself from the toxic interaction. Don’t suffer in silence. Don’t let your thoughts to devour your healthy mind. Share your feelings and never dwell on your problems alone!!!’

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Anxious Existence After the Incident

Precious Experiences

How to cope with anxiety after the incident? How to cope with its symptoms? What does it feel like to be struck by the anxiety attack?

Mental Health SeeSaw

When you live with anxiety for many years you get use to it. It becomes your partner for life. It’s not the most pleasant acquaintance of all times. I would say you treat it as a very annoying colleague from work who happens to sit next to you. You can’t get rid of them (obviously) or completely separate yourself from their presence. You just work out your own clever ways to exist alongside them leading fairly good & satisfying life ( if you’ve already learnt to appreciate it). At times, you don’t even notice them anymore. You treat them as something completely acceptable and relatively easy to deal with. Until…. until something unexpectedly unpleasant happens. You come up against the problem like a champion leaving others amazed of how well you handled the issue. You are proud of yourself but deep down you know that you are about to be…

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Eating Disorder

Life is real

The story about my struggle with the eating disorder.

Mental Health SeeSaw

I had suffered from an eating disorder for many years. I used to emotionally overeat (binge), starve myself and exercise in order to burn the calories I had consumed. It was impossible for me to eat in public places as I felt constantly observed and looked at by strangers. I hated my body and I felt ashamed of it. I avoided mirrors at any cost because in my opinion I didn’t meet the beauty standards. I mentally abused myself by calling my body & inner-self names-” Ugly pig”, “Disgusting fat monster”, “Fat retard”, “Fat looser”etc. I didn’t feel worth of being loved and cared for. I had isolated myself from the world and let the abuse from myself & my ex to take over my life.

It took me a long time to overcome horrible thoughts and overwhelming emotional state which encouraged frequent and regular binge eating sessions. I used…

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Protection

The world

It’s sad to see that people choose wrong paths due to bad life experiences. I have witnessed transformations into selfish , self- centred creatures multiple times. It’s has made me wonder why does it occur so often. 

The thought which comes first in to my mind is ‘protection’. Protection from the world, negative people and situations which caused worries and troubles in the past. It gives people a sense of control over their fate and the Universe which is quite helpful because it creates space for healing. The problem arises when a person who has healed rejects admirable values they were known to live by. The rejection of nobility is the easiest option but it disagrees with the inner- self which deep down sounds the alarm of the conflict. The alarm is heard above the surface. Nothing is done about it- the ignorance jumps into place causing even more confusion. Time goes by and the affected individual either changes themselves revealing their true colours or remains in the blisfull false ignorance.  

Depression

Life is real

When you fall apart, pick up the broken pieces, clean up, take your time to heal and move on. Life goes on so are you & your Inner- Self. 

Remember, don’t rush… give yourself enough time to recover- 1 day, 1 week, 1 month , 1 year… Being hurt, loosing someone who was your partner or a family member, having a broken heart due to abandonment, loosing a job  or simply falling into a whirlpool of depression caused by the pressure of modern life have one thing in common- the need of time to heal. 

You are wonderful human being and even though it may not seem like it right now…life will get better as constant is only change 😊 Don’t give up and talk out loud about your feelings and emotions. 

I’m here to listen.  

Terrorism 

Life is real

Any kind of terrorism is a form of cowardice and slavery. Who are the slaves? The slaves are the people who have been brain washed and are mentally prone to physically harming others. In their pathetically distorted minds they think that they fight for a greater cause e.g. ‘In the name of Allah’. Bullshit!!! Allah has nothing to do with it. Allah – the Heavenly Father as I would call him wouldn’t approve such thing. Islam in its purest form is a religion of peace same as Judaism or Christianity. The problem arises when wealthy Imams, Sheikhs, Priests, Pastors and Kohens manipulates Holy Books to attracts other’s attention, gain followers and achieve their goals by manipulating their flocks’ vulnerable minds. Nobody has any right to deprive another human being and their family of their life. Same thing applies to terrorism, there are wealthy bastards who are standing above the stage directing every move of terrorists who murder their victims. These brain-washed murderers are worth nothing to bastards who run the terrorist groups. They are just objects of no value. They are being convinced to commit crimes in order to be validated in the life after death.

 I hope there is going to be done more to eliminate the root of the problem not only just the stem. More restrictions need to be imposed in the society to control all the religious organisations. The goverments of the countries which are the nest for the heads of terrorist organisations should cooperate together with the rest of the world to destroy  the root of the problem not just the part of it. Only if we as people unite together in the name of peace and equality we will be able to stand against the barbarism which has been going on for years.

Rest In Peace the innocent People who have been killed all over the world. You haven’t deserved it. The justice will be done. Good always wins. Peace and respect are the key  to survival and conquering the barbarism. Muslim, Jewish, Christian , Buddhist, Hindu, Atheist and other brothers & sister please let’s all unite in the battle which consists of mutual respect & support to gain back the  peace and freedom. We are all equal regardless of our religion, beliefs, gender, ethnicity , nationality or sexuality !!!  

Abuse

Life is real

Don’t let others to change your personality. Don’t let them to tell you that there is something wrong with you. Long time ago, I let a person to manipulate me, it took me five long & painful years to break free. I’m healthy, strong and free. If you are in the abusive relationship or know someone who is in the toxic situation please help them. There are so many organisations to reach to. Sometimes, a simple conversation can be an eye opener or at least encouragement to work towards better future. 

Watch for these signs:

* You are blamed for everything you do

* You are never good enough no matter how hard you try 

* You are being called names 

* You are being mentally manipulated making you believe that you have a severe mental issue which can be changed with the solely help of  the abuser ( you will be magically healed as soon as you start behaving according to the abuser’s wishes)

* Your family is being blamed for your ‘poor mental state’ and you are being told to stay away from them

* You are allowed to go out but when you do so you are being ignored or exposed to abusive behaviour e.g. being yelled at for not making dinner or spending money at a piece of clothing

* You are being controlled

* You are exposed to violent behaviour towards material objects and then you are blamed for ‘causing’ it

* You feel threatened and constantly check if the things are done the way the abuser wants them to be 

* You are told that you are the biggest disappointment and cause of such miserable life the abuser is forced to lead because of you 

Please,  don’t hesitate to contact : 

http://www.mensadviceline.org.uk/

http://www.samaritans.org/

https://www.womensaid.org.uk/

annhana22@icloud.com 

Shine bright and remember you are the most unique and wonderful person who has every right to expierience love , respect and joy !!! Life is beautiful 😊 

Anxiety and Depression

Motivational Blib Blob

Once upon a time a tiny Kung Fu Pea suffered from anxiety & depression. The only place he felt safe was his home. The fear of being rejected by others paralysed him to the point he minimised the interaction with the outside world to minimum. He felt worse than others, he didn’t value himself and his self-esteem reached the point below zero on the self- confidence meter. He’d spent his days being isolated, afraid, scared & sad but there was the inner voice inside him which kept telling him that he was worth much more than he thought  he was and that the real adventure would only begin if he made it happen. One day he woke up and ventured out. The Kung Fu Pea faced his demons and realised it wasn’t oh so terrifying, uncomfortable – yes but surely not terrifying. Everyday, he took small steps to heal his soul. It took him a while but with his determination he destroyed all the fears using a super power consisting of self-esteem, self-worth and self-confidence. He knew he wasn’t alone anymore. The inner-self saved his life. The inner-voice resides in all of us. It comfort us, motivate us and pushes us to go that extra mile even when the world crumbles apart. 😊😊😊

Boris- Mental Health- Important 

Precious Experiences

This is Boris 

A male cat who is strong & resilient. He was found under the bridge 14 years ago. He was weak, bruised, injured & scared. It took him a while to heal but in the end he took a major step and began to gradually build a relationship with us based on trust & love. It seems that he left his dark past behind and started a new life. We all could learn from him. I know life injures and scars us but it’s never to late to start AGAIN AND BE FULFILLED!!! 

There are three steps to do that:

1. Realisation of the negative experience and its impact on our lives .

2. Acceptance of the negative experience and the beggining of living our life ‘HERE & NOW ‘ – the importance of being in the present moment and embracing the wonderful visual, verbal & physical things of the surrounding world while focusing on the nature and meditation.

3. Practising living in the present moment and welcoming new life experiences. 

Please be aware that it’s impossible to erase the past. The key to forgiveness is acceptance and self-care. In order to heal emotional and mental wounds we must look after ourselves. It’s not about justifying wrong actions of those who have hurt us but its about solely focusing on ourselves and staying away from toxicity of our perpetrators. We are all unique and special. We deserve respect. 

If you have suicidal thoughts or if you are a victim of bullying, domestic mental & physical abuse, neglect, rape or any other kind mistreatment please don’t be afraid to share your pain & sadness. Life is beautiful full of surprises.

Remember you are a unique human being 😊

annhana22@icloud.com 

http://www.bullying.co.uk/

https://www.womensaid.org.uk/

https://www.helpguide.org/articles/abuse/help-for-abused-men.htm

http://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help-you/contact-us

https://mentalhealthseesaw.com/