Pregnancy is a strange mental and physical state. All of the sudden you feel like some alien force has taken over every single thing you were previously in charge of. If I could compare my brain to an object I would happily compare it to this partially burnt gate called ‘Franky’ who proudly poses for the picture. I’m not saying that a pregnancy is not a miracle- it’s a miraculous and wonderful but freaky occurrence which sucks up every ounce of your energy you’ve had spared leaving you functioning like a Zombie. And yes, every pregnancy is different, some find it easy, some find it difficult and some loose the will to live. I stick with the third option. They say it will pass, it will get easier… Will it really? As far as I know I’m growing a human being inside my body and soon I will be responsible for their entire life until they mature. While I feel rotten to the core I embrace my partially burned and scorched pregnancy brain. Yes, I still manage to find happiness in my newly given sweet and wonderful misery 😊
My mind holds so many twisted pictures. I adore to release them because it makes me realise how special and unique my mind is. Someone would call it insanity… I call it therapeutic reality 😊
Struck by a pre- emptive strike of sorrow derived from anxiety & panic medley I shall stand proud and withstand the shallow tide.
There is nothing better than a soul comforted by music. It keeps me alive. It keeps me going. It reminds me that my Inner- self is there for me when the world around mentally crashes me in to pieces. Tune in to musically enhanced survival mode if you want to stay your real self.
Here I am again….
I am stuck at work.
I keep thinking about Friday because I’m convinced that the mighty Creator of the Universe has lost it or at least misplaced it. I’m talking gibberish but why oh why the weekend doesn’t last three days instead of two. Two days are nothing – you can’t even go to explore the surrounding territory because you are overloaded with chores.
Oh my sweet life and its straining routine there is still some mesmerising beauty in you which won’t vanish in distant time.
Routine is good, it keeps us organised and sane to some extent – ha ha ha ☺
Thoughts are chasing me
I run as fast as I can
I keep myself occupied
I read tons of books
I perform an exorcism on them
Nothing silences my thoughts so I live with them in peace.
Moments like that make me alive. I’m bursting with joy as my inner-self is swirling around in the mesmerising beauty of positive vibrations.
So what ?
Derangement, my dearest friend of all, my 6th sense, my awkwardness, my last breath- you stimulate my creativity and open the gates to the other dimension only available to ‘chosen’.
Round and round we go through the twisted forest. Our minds connected project a movie of various genres.
Strong minded creatures are beings of rich and beautiful souls. Their perception always thrives therefore is extremely heightened. It’s very easy to hurt them because they read in between lines. They are prone to making assumptions and are usually vigilant. Strong minded creatures choose their friends wisely due to thorough analysis which helps them to avoid human parasites.