The journey which has welcomed a new cat and a little bubba growing inside me. Our family is expanding.
Mittens is beginning to get along with our new Italian female gangster Meg. Meg is very playful and looks forward to Mittens joining in her hyperactive ventures around the house. He is still a bit reluctant.
I’m slowly adjusting to pregnancy symptoms and trying to stay awake ( especially in the middle of the day 😅🤣). Ian has been very helpful trying to accomodate my needs and reminding me that I do need to slow down a bit.
I want to take it easy today. I want to feel the mother nature putting me in a state of hibernation. I want to feel my presence in the universe. I want it to fill me up with joy and cheerfulness of my existential potential.
I stood outside barefoot on the pricly concrete wondering where to go. The demise of my thoughts was tormeting my bruised and shattered soul. The pain pierced my heart and the sorrow buried my brain. They placed me in the cemetery for reclusive and self punished creatures. Still alive but in deep hibernation I thought I took my last breath. I didn’t have a poignant farewell, nobody celebrated my extinction. My only companion who stayed with me for better and worse was faithful SOLITUDE. It wasn’t a final chapter but a prequel to LIFE. I gathered shattered pieces and built my own garden of Eden laid on the foundations of ZEN. I cherish my acquired spiritual freedom every single day. I stand outside barefoot feeling soft, juicy green and wavy grass under my feet. I feel delighted and spoilt. The beautiful life continues.
There is nothing better than a soul comforted by music. It keeps me alive. It keeps me going. It reminds me that my Inner- self is there for me when the world around mentally crashes me in to pieces. Tune in to musically enhanced survival mode if you want to stay your real self.
I’ve been absent for over two weeks !!! First of all, I want to say I was so looking forward to spending last week at work awaiting Christmas like an average human being but (instead) I ended up having sinusitis & flu all together winning a one week sick note ( my first sick note from GP in my entire life). I recovered slowly… but steady. Second of all, my plans of sorting out the house for Christmas and cooking a great meal which I could present to other fellow creatures walked away from me due to my poor health. So what? We still had a great time being buried under a ton of used tissues courtesy of me. Then, the Christmas came and my partner proposed. Yessss, Goldilocks Exterminators are engaged !!! It was the most beautiful moment which I’m going to cherish for the rest of my life !!!
Happy Belated Christmas and Happy New Year Dear People xxx
I have experienced something very interesting. I have dealt with and treated anxiety as my puppet for as long as I can remember. I had gone through multiple phases which always ended up with me having a mini breakdown over the side effects of an anxiety attack. Recently, everything has changed. Now, when my poor inner- self is struck with anxiety and I experience all sorts of symptoms including slurred speech I just go around my business and function as normal without dwelling on the fact of feeling like the utter & complete shit 😎
If I can do it you can do it too.