Here I am again….
I am stuck at work.
I keep thinking about Friday because I’m convinced that the mighty Creator of the Universe has lost it or at least misplaced it. I’m talking gibberish but why oh why the weekend doesn’t last three days instead of two. Two days are nothing – you can’t even go to explore the surrounding territory because you are overloaded with chores.
Oh my sweet life and its straining routine there is still some mesmerising beauty in you which won’t vanish in distant time.
Routine is good, it keeps us organised and sane to some extent – ha ha ha ☺
Life is like a yeast cake made according to your taste and the recipe you’ve chosen.
This is how I picture anxiety- a grumpy & sneaky creature with no real power to destroy you except for manipulative nature which can influence your mind and maliciously gnaw on it.
Helping others is noble only when you don’t expect anything in return- that’s what I believe in.
I had a conversation with a friend about it. Actually, it wasn’t meant to be a conversation but after she attempted to give me a life lecture I just couldn’t help myself and spoke my mind.
I was going to fill in a form- an application for my neighbours. The application had 86 pages. I printed it for them as I have a free and unlimited access to the printer. When my friend heard about it she instantly started asking me what I would get in return for helping my neighbours. She was making assumptions of them crossing boundaries and further exploiting me in regards to their documents. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. It made me feel annoyed and disgusted listening to her pathetic statements of how she wouldn’t do it because she is not naive and of how she always relies on herself.
I replied in a very short manner- I said, your problem is that you always look for the profit in everything – how much you can gain from the situation. You take pride in your achievements stating that if others are less capable of doing something then that’s their problem. What if you are in need one day and they will be no-one to support you because you won’t have anything to pay in return with. Karma works its way around.
You do good and the good deeds will return to you, you do bad and hard times will arrive at some point in your life.
Let the life be, don’t fight it but discover the Universe. The hidden gems are awaiting to be pulled out of its wonderful concoction.
Being invincible means putting on a brave face and getting out there to face the world!!!
Be fully aware of your surroundings, feel and embrace each and every step you take.
Don’t abuse your existence but love & embrace every given moment of it.
Today was rather difficult, not because something bad happened but because my brain decided not to cooperate with me and instead changed in to mushy porridge. It was very difficult for me to do anything I had planned for today. I think I coped well because I didn’t stay idle and I managed to follow my plans in a less productive way,meaning- I took it easy and followed my mighty instinct to slow down.
The key to living with anxiety is to know your mind & body well. If you are able to pick up the signs and symptoms of an upcoming period or attack then it means you are a well trained warrior. The next step is to be able to move on past the attack in a non mentally harmful way. I had spent years emotionally beating myself up for having a worse or post stressful reaction day ( sometimes it lasts 2- 3 days) but I stopped when I realised I was only slowing down the recovery process. I try to keep active and busy as much as I can, when I have a worse day I simply hit the breaks but I still get few planned things done.
Listen to your body & mind, be in tune with it and most of all don’t reject your inner-self because this is where you get the warning signals from of an upcoming panic or anxiety episode. Live your life to the fullest and treat your mental condition as a special addition. I call mine – a partner for life 😉
Are you a busy bumblebee living your life to its fullest potential?
Below are two helpful starterts which may help you to find the answer based on the thoughtful contemplation.
If you always do your best, stay active, catch the opportunities thrown at you, get up and go despite various problems , see the half-empty glass as half-full and embrace you existence being happy with most of the aspects of it then the answer is yes.
If you constantly complain, wait for better times to come, stay idle despite the world waiting for you with open arms and run away from problems instead of dealing with them then the answer is no.
The choice is yours!!! Remember we are not immortal and time flies by 😊